Scared

So I got a call from the company that I interviewed for at the begining of the month. I was hired on account of the fact that I pass a physical exam. I am kind of scared. What if I am told I am too fat for this job? What if I am told that I am not in good enough shape for this job? I feel better about it now that I have lost 38 pounds and I am lifting children every day. I think that is one thing that I am blessed with I have always been strong. On one of my message boards there were women all about my weight who were commenting on how they wish they could bathe by themselves, wipe themselves, and tie their shoes. I know there might be other physical issues other then obesity. But, I am glad that I have the capability to still accomplish those things and much more. My friend calls me her boygirl. Before she was married to a man who would do these things ( even married to a man who wouldn't) She would call me to come move things for her. If something was too heavy, if she needed help moving she called me. I grew up on a farm. I helped do the yard work. I guess muscle strength was always OK with me. It was cardio that was my issue.

Today, I was working with a client he was riding his bike. I asked him if he wanted to race back to the car. He said yes. So I ran as hard as I could until he stopped when his sister started crying because she couldn't keep up with us (she was on a scooter). Then we started again and I was walking. He asked me if we could race again and I said yes, I was breathing hard, but I said YES! Off, I went again as hard as I could. We stopped about 500 ft later he was distracted. We sat for a minute waited for his mom for a bit. And I asked him if he wanted to finish racing to the car. For better part of 2 minutes I think I ran. In flip flops. So, now I ask myself why can't I do a C25k?? Simple I tell myself I can't do it. I know I can! I need Jillian or someone like her screaming at me. Telling me I can and I have too! Mind over matter!

Questions?!?!

What should I expect during my physical?
What are you proud that you can accomplish?
Do you tell yourself you can't do something?

Numbers

It is Saturday, I was all set to go hiking. But, Rib Mountain Road is closed for the summer due to contstruction so there goes that. But, I found another place that is actually closer to my house, it looks like flat trails from what I know of the area but on the other hand I will still be out in nature. So, I will go check it out.

7.5 is the numbter of inches I have lost. This week was a much better week for me then last week. I finally measured and I am happy with the results after the bad weight loss I have managed a 7.5 inch lost this month
Bust: 51-49=2 inches
Waist: 47.5-45= 2.5 inches
Hips: 58-55= 3 inches

83 pounds is the weight of a client. One day this week one of my children went in and took out the scale after he went swimming he weighed 83 pounds. You ask why this is important to me ooo because it is. I have to lift this child 3 days a week, swing him around, help him climb trees. This little sometimes likes to be lifted above my head. I thought my muscle defintion on my arms have gotten better and oooo they have. Along with that the pain in my upper body has decreased. I think my muscles are finally becoming strong enough that they don't tire out easily.

26 is the size of my pants. Those pants I bought just 3 weeks ago. Yeah they are too big now. I have to roll them up so they stay where they are supposed too. I need to buy a belt. Maybe, next pay day money allowing. I like them they are actually shorts. I never wear shorts. These are actaully low enough on my legs I don't worry about my scar on my knee showing, or my birth mark that looks like an ugly mole on my lower upper thigh showing.

I have an issue with my legs. I played soccer for 4 years growing up and because all the teams were full I was put on a team with girls older then me. I was awesome at defense. But, the girls always made fun of me for my chicken legs. My upper body is where I keep all my excess weight. So my legs look like chicken legs. After my knee surgery my Physical Therapist couldn't believe how strong my calves were to my quads. Our coach used to make us walk on our toes in order to build the muscle in our calves to prevent spasms. To this day my calves are pretty toned. You can see it when I flex my muscles in my calves. They are no where near where I want them but hey at least I don't have cankles.

200 is the number of the situps I chose to join a challenge for you can see it here . I am on week 1 day 3 right now. I need to remember though that I can take at least a 60 second break rather then trying to kill myself.